Over the last few weeks I have been on an emotional roller coaster with this gal Natalie. I heard about her and her serious need for prayer via Twitter. I asked everyone I knew to pray for her and her precious son Gavin, I even recruited my Bible study ladies. He was fighting for his life in the hospital and Natalie was giving us the play by play and the details of exactly what Gavin specifically needed. I was praying for miracles and Natalie didn't get the one we were all praying for. She lost her precious son. I cried as my heart broke for this woman that lives across an ocean who I will probably never meet. I wanted to hug her, her husband, her other little boys. I wished that from far away I could find some way to comfort them. But thank the Lord, He is bigger than an ocean and tiny little me. And thank God for Natalie's persistent faith.
Natalie, if you ever read this please know that I think of you every. single. day.
Thank you for giving me a new perspective. Thank you for teaching me an incredible lesson.
I always thanked God for my daughter before I fell asleep at night. But it is because of you and because of Gavin's short yet powerful life that I fall asleep much differently. Every night I fall asleep praising Him for every single second I get with her. And then I beg and plead with God for at least one more morning that I can wake up and see her face, hear her coo and feel her warm cheek on mine.
I do believe I will think of you everyday for the rest of my life. Thank you for being so honest.